Thursday, July 10, 2008 5:56 AM
Football&netball&depression&miserable&complicated life...
My complicating,miserable life..depressing..My life sucks...i cannot take it...i see u fall...u were so worried bout the game but not urself...i noe u really wanna win badly..but u fell and all..it hurts alot seeing u fall and all...pls take care..i noe u dont bother anymore...u had her..."when i see u hurt...i wanna go help u...but as i was walking towards u..she was there right infront of u talking and laughing with u...i feel really bad..my heart is broken...i really cant accept the fact that u both were together..i felt bad when i see both of u together..i felt bad when i hear ppl shouting both of ur names together..i felt bad when i hear things bout both of u together...i dont wanna listen to all those things anymore...i dont wanna see both of u together anymore...i really dont...it makes me wanna tear...i cannot take it anymore...when i need u by myside...u werent there...u were with her..and u wont even care if u ever noe dat i needed u by my side...i noe u wont even care if i die..i never even bother...when i see u staring at her...and smiling at her..it hurts alot..when will u start talking to me again?when will u start smilling to me again?the moment u saw me...looking at u is embarrassing..i always tell myself that as long as u are happy i'm okay with it..but i'm not at all...i feel bad when i see both of u together..it really hurts alot...i really hurts alot...
I want to hate him...but i couldnt ..cause i love him...why must it be liek this?..it hurts alot..it really does...U can really forget everything so fast..will i be able to forget u?Football...only noe dat...6 orange masuk semifinals..and the game is tomorrow..really happy dat they manage to get in to the semifinals...i saw some players from 6O falling...they can really tahan the pain though...so yeahlaa..take care guys..i noe u guys can do it...and to 1 of the players there..take care..i noe u wont bother bout wat i say..but i just hope dat u'll live a happy life..
Netball...Today is also the netball comepetition..my class did very well in it..they practised real hard for it..hope they can do it and win..^^it rained at the last 3 minutes..llol..continue tmr..Complicating decisionman...which will u choose...being hated by someone..or being with some1 which u feel insecure with...i really need an answer..i dont noe wat to answer...its such a complicating answer..i'm with a girl which i feel insecure with..but i wanna be with a girl which hated me cause of a reason...but she is still kind and caring...i dont think she really hate me though...but i dont wanna choose between both of them...they are both my best fren...i really love them..i dont wanna hurt them...pls give me an answer which doesnt hurt any of them..PLS!!
i'll end now..byebye..
ps...to dat guy which i loved...hope u live a happy life with her..make a rite decision..u are always de best to me...
