Tuesday, December 2, 2008 2:07 AM
Lost in my own feelings..
I keep telling myself then i'm over u..i told everybody i'm over you..but am i really over you??the answer is no...i just realised that i'm not...all these while i never let you down..i just realised that..after i found out that u have some1 else..after some1 told me that u have some 1 else..on that second i realised that u're no longer mine..you use to cheer me up when i'm depressed..you use to cheer me up when i just break up...but now..there's no another you to cheer me up.there's no another you to be there for me when i needed a shoulder to cry on.there's no more another you to tell me your jokes to cheer me up...there's no more another you who give me comfortable hugs..there's no more another you to help me out with my works...you were there for me all these while...but now..you arent there to cheer me up from my depression cause of my problems anymore..now it's your turn to make me lost..i'm confused..i'm lost in my own feelings...i didnt accept the fact that we're no longer together..i didnt accept the fact that u're no longer mine..i didnt accept the fact that u're gone from my life..i didnt accept it all these while because i cant accept it..all i have to do is learn to..but i cant...it's just too hard for me...i would just pretend that you're still there for me..but now it will never work anymore..when i wanna pretend that u're still there for me..the fact that you are with some 1 else and the fact that you are not with me anymore..is there to stop me..i will just have to ask myself..you use to wipe my tears..but now..you're making me tear..I dont wanna be this weak anymore..i'm tired of all this things going on..i'm tired of missing you..i'm tired of being tired..i'm tired of waiting for u..i knw you wont even come back to me..sometimes..when i look in the pond..the water is calm and still..my reflection is there..i see you holding me..but then you suddenly dissapear..and i knw all that is left of you is a memory that only exist in my dream..evry night i will just dream bout us together..and the next morning it just hurt so much to know that i'm not actually with you..to knw that you're no longer mine..to knw that u're gone.to knw that u're no longer by my side..to know that you left me..i know i'm such a loser for writting this..my previous post is about the 1 u love being happy and you'll be happy..yes is he's happy i will..but..still i really want him by my side..i love him..he has some1 else for him..i'm just not the right person for him..to all readers i'm sorry for being emo..sorry..i'm just letting out my feelings..cause i dont think there's lots of ppl who is reading my blog.so yea...sry ppm..
